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29. I read about your book, but have not bought it. I don't know if I am offended or intrigued. I wrote a screenplay about my own schizophrenic father and had a story about him on MTV. I guess I won't fully know what I think about what you are saying unless I read it, but I think I am too offended to look LOL! I want to be open minded and if you fully knew about my father you would know why I am afraid to read it. Well take care. Summary about Daughter of a Rogue Stephanie Lynn Hilpert has been going into parks and desolate areas to find her homeless/paranoid schizophrenic father since she was 14 years old. She had footage on MTV News Unfiltered about her and her father’s story. He Thinks he is the second son of God and hangs out with Job from the bible in his mind, and Mary Magdalene. When Stephanie was in her twenties she applied for disability for her father, took him to his doctor appointments and after a year, he got it, but still refused to live in a house. He poured his medication out the day he got his money. He thinks a sheriff named Haun is following him in a helicopter all of the time. He thinks Stephanie is a lesbian and will go to hell where people will urinate on her if she doesn’t stop her lesbianism. He thinks the Mexican mafia is after him. Stephanie had to stop going out there, because he was getting more and more volatile and was recently arrested for terrorist threats. He was self medicating with drugs and getting worse and worse. He is still out there and calls Stephanie on the phone regularly. She hopes to sell her screenplay “Daughter of a Rogue” to raise awareness about the fact the 90% of the homeless are mentally ill. [CHAPTER 4 - DAD] My dad’s schizophrenia seems like a worse case scenario. He is so delusional. His delusions are getting more and more obscene which I find interesting and disgusting as his daughter. When I was much younger, I was so offended and could hardly listen to him at times. Sometimes I would laugh. It would shock me into laughter. I guess it was my way of coping. I never seem to laugh now. What interests me most is my father’s fascination with Jesus. You might say that’s nothing new in schizophrenics. My dad used to say “Jesus is a black man, hair like wool. Love Jesus, pray to Jesus.” Then Jesus betrayed him some where down the line. The interesting part was when my dad screamed “Jesus tried to make me suck his dick”! Now Jesus has been a “queer” to my dad ever since. My dad is very homophobic. If a man touches my dad, he will break his arm. Now back to Jesus. Where did their relationship go wrong in his mind? What happened? I have wondered if my dad is an oppressed homosexual, I’m not going to lie. Did my dad have a delusional, homosexual encounter with Jesus and now he is ashamed? It’s all I can wonder when he says things constantly about queers, they have no dick and balls, men take from my energy, but women and children giveth and the famous “Jesus tried to make me suck his dick”! He goes on and on about queers. I hope he is never angry that I wrote this. I love him and would never be ashamed of him whether he were gay or not. My dad is very manipulative. He isn’t stupid at all. I hate that they put all personalities of schizophrenics in this little box and they decide that is how they act. It’s not true. They are individuals. Sure there are characteristics that define the disease, but they still have individual personalities trust me. Like my dad does feel love. I’ve seen him hurt. I’ve seen him feel guilt, but that is slowly going away with the years and the drug use. Drugs make schizophrenia so much worse. They self medicate and become this monster that can’t be helped. They become a creature surrounded by creatures. You have to be sure all the creatures don’t hurt you even though they seem to tear at you emotionally. Stephanie Lynn Hilpert [ www.myspace.com/stefania_writes ]
28. hello my name is [deleted] i have schhizophrenia ive had it for almost 8 years before that im not sure of im still learning to deal with my moods changing they cahnge all the time i find its really hard im know finding out on my own that i have probally got more wrong with me than i ever knew its going to be really nice when i get to the bottom of this when i really can relax and not have to worry well i will still worry but atleast i wont be having as much problems its just really hard to cope with everyday life when it doint help when i dont be honest with my docotr tis really hard i really want to get to know people with the same things that im dealing with it would be so nice to be able to relate to someone without them thinking your crazy thats really hard deailing with that. well anyways im going to go you can contact me at [deleted] that is if you want to answer back or make coments.
27. Are you crazy?how dare you do this to my family?????? you are God how can you do this to us human beings???why???? please tell me why did you let her change the time and slice my soul in two? why did you show your face in the bar?? we are just human beings how can you give her all the tools for a massacre .... put yourself in my shoes... —[Name deleted for privacy reasons] A personal communication from a young schizophrenic man who lives with his schizophrenic mother. One of the symptoms of his schizophrenia is alcohol/drug addiction. (See Impressions, page 2, item 6.)
26. Bearded Lady Syndrome!!!!!!!???????? I have had severe anxiety, depression, and depersonalization/derealization (dissociative symptoms you probably know nothing about). I have been ill most of my life -- I'm now 48. I have volunteered for years in Mental Health day care centers, am a consumer member of NAMI, read extensively on mental illness, etc. (My mother was a psychiatrist, my father a surgeon). There is so much proof that schizophrenia is a brain disorder I am astounded that you cling to old psychoanalytic theories on the topic. I have met individuals with schizophrenia, many, through NAMI. They do not fit your profile in the least, especially the comparison with Zelda and F. Scott Fitzgerald! You're back in the day of the "schizophrenegenic mother" -- the stone age of psychiatry. I've lived through the foolishness of psychoanalysis myself. It only served to hinder any return to functioning. I have had more positive results with medication and CBT. It seems YOU are afraid to look at what is an obvious brain disorder that is not only comprised of positive and negative symptoms, but of cognitive difficulties, difficulties reading social cues, problems with hearing voices that have been found to have a neurological origin. Shame on you for not examining the huge mass of literature in various medical journals using the scientific method, using modern brain scan equipment, surgery on brain-damaged patients where certain symptoms can be created. (Brain trauma, epilepsy, deep brain stimulation, etc.) I KNOW schizophrenics. They would be disgusted to hear your theory. Most HATE their medications, and they are NOT a cure, but they wouldn't go without them. Their quality of life is greatly improved. There are individuals with schizophrenia and other mental disorders who are successful in many fields -- you would never know who they are as they must keep that stigma a secret. And they aren't battling a sexual crisis that caused their illness! I could ramble on infinitely. Have you read the work of V.S. Ramachandran, M.D., Ph.D.? Oliver Sacks, M.D.? Then you know absolutely NOTHING about the complexity of the human brain. NOTHING. Shame on you.
25. Subject: true schizophrenia Hello i would like to say first of all that i am a true schizophrenic and the topic of your book has deffenitely caught my eye for several reasons. I do know what it like to be possessed by a spirit of the opposite sex. I personally find it hell. how ever i also walk with the lord, not to mention my love for the male body. well any way i just want to say that I always have intrusive schizo thoughts popping in and out of my brain some sick and perverted and anitchrist like. but what is important to know is the all the schizo's in the world are chosen people. and if you know anything about being a true christian you know that sufforing is part of the deal when you follow him with true devotion. so i pray it away and i tell my demon inside to kiss my ass and get the hell behind me. i do not accept it, or any other perverse mind flash i have. i strongly recommend this to other sufforing with this illness. i find it not but a moment later that god lets me know he loves me and thanks me for holding on to what i know. Peace
24. Dear Mr. Mahoney, I have purchased your book in e-book format -- I suppose due to a bit of manic impatience! One of my dreams is to speak to groups of mental health professionals, and I will definitely work to increase awareness of your book. The big money is currently being misdirected to genetic and pharmaceutical research, as evidenced by the Heinz Prechter Fund and the Stanley Medical Research Institute, which just awarded $100 million to Harvard University over the next 10 years. You have performed a great service. May the current generation of practitioners be educated to the truth! Best regards,
23. I have read your book in detail twice. I will be 76 in May and am married for the second time for 14 years to a wonderful woman. Her youngest son is 31 and has been showing most of the signs indicated in your book in one form or another for all of that time. In and out of hospitals and diagnosed with Schizophrenia, etc. I am convinced that your theory is correct. Do you know of anyone in the medical field who believes as you do and is currently willing to see new patients? I hope to hear from you. [name deleted for privacy reasons]
22. I first noticed this book in a magazine and responded to the theory with some skepticism. After thinking about it for awhile I had what Nathaniel Branden might call an "ah ha" experience and ordered the book. I wanted to see where Mr. Mahoney was getting some of his information so I requested a copy of Dr. Edward Kempf's presentation "Bisexual Factors in Curable Schizophrenia" given at the annual meeting of the American Psychiatric Association on May 18, 1948. This is a man who had been treating mental illness and specifically schizophrenia for most of his medical years. I have been unable to find anyone who followed his theory to either confirm or dispute it. Mr. Mahoney asked in his statement of purpose, "Why has the scientific community been so stubborn in resisting this hypothesis? Why has this hypothesis been catalogued as just one of many inconclusive theories which attempts to explain madness?" I wonder why also. During Dr. Kempf's presentation he stated that, "I am quite sure that it would be easy to demonstrate these factors in any case and often within an hour of investigation." Where are the reviews of this theory? In my searching, why can't I find anyone in the medical profession that disputes this with confidence? Is one hour too much to ask of the medical establishment to see if there is any credibility in Dr. Kempf's statement?" I think that after all the years and work that J. Michael Mahoney has given to possibly improving the lives of thousands, he and the theory deserve an answer. [name deleted for privacy reasons] |
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